The countdown has begun, a new monster to be unveiled!!

The moment is finally arriving ~ the moment many have been waiting for...



the birth of a new monster... Ladies, and especially Gents, the birth of the all-new Nissan GT-R !!

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There's no one more important than.... friends

Friend are the most important people in my life (it's through certain life experiences which got me to this point..). I used to believe friends were very important, that they will always be there for you, whenever you need them, whenever you're in trouble, and I still do.

And now, through trying times, friends are proving once again, as the most important people in my life. Indirectly, I did not know that so many people cared about me, concerned about my well-being...

Anyways, this is a post, dedicated to all my friends, I truly and really appreciate your care for me. It's through your concerns that I've managed to survive all these years.. I may have infuriated several of you, and I'm truly sorry... I've doubt I've ever made any of you sad, but disappointed several...

If there's any possiblity for you to see, I'm honestly trying to improve myself, it's just that deep within, I've reached a barrier so high, I've trouble seeing if there is another side to it... But your encouragement has made it that much easier for me to climb it, to make it possible to reach to the top to cross over.

Thank you.

Can't stand with my own two legs!!

Something about discipline which I can never understand... why is it I need someone to push me to do something ? I've become such a retard, that virtually everything I do, I need an external force acting on it, in order to get it started.

I've become so prone to depending on people, it's not even a joke anymore !!

Ever since I was young, everything I do is done because people asked me to do. I've just only realized it. I've been pushed around so much by the people around me, that I can't even gather up the energy to do things on my own anymore!

The worst is that because of this, I'm now like a puppet with no owner, just lying around in some back alley, waiting to rot. It's now like I don't know what's going on around me, it's just that my body is so used to being controlled by the puppet-master, that I can't move it myself!!

I started to build a habit of procrastinating, because it seemd that my mouth was the only thing I could still control, despite being pushed around by this "puppet-master". It only became worse as people around me started to not take my words seriously anymore...

I've got to seize control of my "controlled" life again!! I vow to reduce my procrastination, but I just hope to gain control of my near-dead body of mine.

Can someone give me a wake up call??? It's time my wooden body is given life!! Give me a sense to achieve again, to achieve something!!

Life in college is about to end ...

With around 2 months more till the end of the exam of my final semester in college, it's just a matter of weeks till the end of my official education. With that, I'd be starting work, and kissing my life of studies in formal institutions good bye ~

I can't help but to reminiscent about the past.. the times in college, the strangers I met who became friends, the experiences I went through which became memories, the failures which were engraved into the walls of the mind, and the successes which were immortalized ... okay, I'm being overly dramatic, but you get the picture.

It's basically turning over a new leaf... wiping clean the whiteboard of our life... starting anew in a new chapter of our life story. but during these times, you'll pause to look back at what you've written so far.

My life in my current college was not as bright as in my previous college. I admit, it's mostly my fault as I'm quick to adapt, but poor at adapting... I tend to compare myself and adapt to the closest I'm with, and once done, I seldom change as long as my environment stays. Long story short, I should have changed with the times...

Anyways, over the last... 3 years I've been with basically the same group of friends, friends which helped me though problems in class, friends who'd hang out together for movies, friends who share the same interests in hobbies and things of interests.... okay, I'm starting my drama-ish talk again... I can't help it..

It's been quite a journey through college years ~ a colourful one at that, though not fulfilling... but no regrets. I'll admit I didn't do my best in terms of academic achievement, but what I lacked in that, I covered up in social activities. I was relatively quiet during my secondary years, so it was a big change for me during college. Of course, this doesn't mean I was good in studies then as well.....

One thing I hear from friends who are currently working, is always to enjoy as much as you can during college life; cuz once you start working, you'll have no time for anything. You'll look back at adore the time you had then... and dread at the time you're working. You'll be like a mindless machine working in the corporate lines of factories, only feeding the corrupt and the evil .. !!! oops, went too far....

But basically, college is meant to be a colourful life, a time of social activities and studies, and time of mixing around. At least, the way I saw it.

It's been a wonderful college life, though it could have been better. Although I'd dread to leave this chapter of my life, I'm really looking forward in charting the routes for my new journey through the atlas of the open future which lies ahead of me!!

Fireworks Competition

Today I went to the Fireworks Competition held in Putrajaya. Unfortunately my camera is not good enough to take pics during the nite, so I didnt bother taking it along.

It was pretty good overall~ the performance and pyrotechnics the Canada team used were spectacular. But somehow I didn't enjoy the display much... I dont' enjoy events as much as I do before... Instead, I tend to focus on other things rather than main events nowadays.

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The past shapes a persons future, what do you think of that? For me, I personally think it's a fact. What you experience or the events you been through when you're young, especially when you're still pre-teens, tend to affect the way you act or think when you're older. Things which I do today, are all reflections of what I went through when I was still a kid.

For example, I can never stand seeing a child cry. It simply breaks my heart. This is because I used to cry a lot when I was young due to certain particular reasons which I won't disclose. So whenever I see a child cry, I tend to somehow... "share the pain", if you will.... but alas, it's not something I can just simply intervene...

KL or Singapore ?

I'm torn currently between going to Singapore to work after graduating, or working in KL/ Selangor....

on the upside of working in Singapore, at least I can experience Singapore life, so called start fresh ~ better working ethics compared to those here in KL in general, more cost efficient (earning in SGD), overall as I heard better in the terms of an IT grad.

The upside for KL would be near home, no need to worry about place to live or cost of rental, won't be lonely as my friends are still around here, familiar with the places here, and I guess... won't get homesick.

Now for the downsides:
Singapore - homesick, worry for rental, little social life
KL - Bitching jam daily, not as much job experience I believe

So I'm torn.... do I go to Singapore or do I stay here in KL ? I don't really care about the pay, but what I'd like to know, how's the job experience ? is it really different between these two cities ? anyone with job experience in Sg mind sharing ??